Labels

So the other day I was thinking--mind you that it was 2:30 am--that we put ourselves into labels all our lives.

I always had trouble figuring out in which crew I belonged or the type of person I was, as in I'm geeky, or I'm popular, or artsy. It was a struggle that I faced for all of my life (even tho I'm only 18) because--being a gift or a curse, I don't know--I was always a social butterfly, meaning that I was friends with all different kinds of people and I was always wondering what I was in the friend group; was I the funny one? Or maybe the smart one? As I was having these thoughts that night, I was also thinking about my sexuality--how I told every one who asked that I was bisexual. But as time goes by, I started telling people that I like who I like and that I don't need those types of labels. But why can I say and embrace that about my sexuality? Why can't I just do that with my character? I was so frustrated about it. Why couldn't it be enough if I was just me.

Society has its claws so deep in ourselves that we can't get out of everything that it implies-- and that's just crap. I don't want to fit in a mold that society put me into. I want to be my one unique cloud in the sky.